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Sir : Hmm.. You very good huh. Always smile. Good lahh you this type of person.

Me : *stares and forced a smile on my face.

Sir : Next time you surely can change your husband. If he's sad you surely can change him to be happy.

Me : *stares again with a smile and control not to tear.


Is that so? I used to be a happy person, i know.
But nahh,. NOT this moment lahh sir. :)


Im scare now, really. ;]

You care?

This is the 3rd saturday, without him.
As usual i woke up and saw whatever it is thats well expected.
Which is so ruining my day.

I dont know if he changed or what.
What i know is, im changing.
You've started to make my love for you to turn into hatred.
So slowly.

I'll return you, what you gave to me today.
I SURELY WILL.

I cried and cried, did you ever care?
Each night I was thinking about you, did you ever care?
I wanted to find you every single day, did you ever care?
I was hoping you to drop me a message asking how do i do, did you ever care?


ALL YOU KNOW IS YOU YOURSELF.
YOU'VE BEEN ACTING SO SELFISHLY.
WHAT FCKING JERK ARE YOU!

I HATE YOU. KEEP THAT IN YOUR MIND.

Private

Finally, I've set my blog as private one.
Only for me.
I chose to hide everything, and EVERYTHING, because i know..
There's no point letting others know on how i feel.

Noone's gona understand this.


Its already 2 weeks plus, yet, im still missing You.
And i dont think you do. Im stupid for another day!
I wish i could confess everything out, but i know,
You wont give any respond on that.

School

It is the first day of school after the midterm holiday.
Some of the results were distributed. Well predicted ald.. Some of you might know why.
What i thought last night was, i thought it would be a good starter for me.
A new beginning perhaps?
A new hectic life, where you can forget unnecessary things around you.
But...

Not so fast. :)
Till today, or i can say its now itself, im feeling so odd.
Stupidity in me. Naive in me. Childish. Ect...

Its the first time, me, feelign so different in this whole journey in my Form6 life.
Yes, You were there, before i started this journey, You were there whenever there was any pickstop in this journey, You were always there.... Except, today.
I wonder, do You actually think of me all these while? Im left unanswered. Or maybe, Im just too afraid to know and accept the answer.




Im thinking to set my blog as private, soon.
Maybe. :)
Cause, its more than a blog, somewhere I can express out, something I wouldnt dare to do say in my real life.

Accidents

What does accident means?
Accidents do happen, right?
Whats worse is, i feel my life hasnt been a really good one these days.
Its true.

Problems came continuously without stopping.
How could this ever be? I dont know.
Met with one yesterday. And it seems like its not that piece of cake and gona end immediately or what so ever.

What i believe is, everything here is ROUND.
What it comes, it'll surely go.
Either a good or bad one.
I might face alot of hurdles these days, but sooner, the luck will come!
To me and all my family members.

Those that hurt us, you'll pay for it.
Its the time that matters.



Thats it.