Too good to be true?

its a life process where you'll meet with all sorts of people at different ages.
as we grow older, things wil tend to be more and much more complicated and so does our friend cycle will get smaller and smaller. this is the time when we feel the importance of qualities instead of quantities. each of us are hoping that we will find someone who treat us best, give us the best and full commitment, most importantly being real to us, it wouldnt be matter where this person refers to our life partner or friends or even relatives.
as we walk out from our house gate, how many of you can actually pin point on any person and assure that he's being a bad guy or the good guy. try sitting in the middle of your classroom, try to observe everyone.. how many of them are actually behaving their true colours infront of you? everyone has the same features, so, who's the bitchy ones? there will definitely be one, at least one in your life.
so, whats all this game about? who sets the rule? whats the condition to win in this game? is it true you have to learn to hypocrite, learn to be 'smart' or in other word fake, and maybe a little cunning in order to master this game? whats with all these values after all? everyone tries their very best to influence others instead of being a follower instead. so do i. sadly, looking at my condition now, i know im far, way behind this check point. i might be a little straight forward at times, and being naive enough thinking that if you're my friend and truly understands me, you wouldnt mind and those who mind dont matters. somehow, as i grow older i realised something the other way round. i could still remember how my last relationship failed, and thats mainly because i 'calculated' too much?
i wouldnt want to talk much about it, thats not the main thing. whats important and mean everything to me now is my family. im born very fortunate, since young im pampered with all loves from both my parents and so does my brothers. despite the little arguements we had when we were kids, now that i grow older i wouldnt take the effort to fight back (at times i do, depends on my mood ), i might get offended at times from what it came out from his mouth but thats ok, he still loves me. during the younger days everything seem so fun. i used to lived in a papan house for i dont know many years and the 5 of us used to sleep in one room. so what if we are poor? those are time where we get along the most, laugh together the most, and used to joke around after we switch off the light. hmm.. i miss all those moments. now that everyone grows up, own their houses, it feels like something is missing. whats worse is when your siblings start to have their own families. sometimes, i might be a little selfish by making selfish wishes. i wish all of us never grow up, all of us will forever be under our parents' wing. there's this phobia for sure, of what? you'll tend to worry that will your sibling treat you the same again after they have their own family? or this jealousy feeling when your love is divided and shared with others. anyhow, this. is. a. life. cycle.
we can never change how the way it is going to be. instead of having this thoughts, i can change it as, for instance, i'll be having another 2 new sisters! :) if they are happy with it, we should feel happy for them. but.. what if, we are not?
should we put a mask on our facee and acted like we are ok with it or try to ignore as much as possible? how long will it last? this is truly saddening looking at how gaps tend to grow even bigger right after you came in. is it true that we make conclusion too early and really misunderstand you? if this is between 1 on 1, the root problem might be on either one of you but what ifs this is not something 1 on 1. logicslly, who's the problem maker? to be honest as time goes by, things never really get fixed instead it get worse.
what should we do? how can this be solved?

so clueless, sigh. i wish you never exist. sorry.

Genting trip ; 17th - 18th

Title says it all.

It took us quite some time to think of a place to go after our final exam. Malacca? Some Islands? One of our coursemate's hometown? And so we ended up somewhere near and convenient to all of us - Genting Highlands. To be honest, never in my life I tried playing all those games in the theme parks, Im scare of heights, very. Since I got world card with me, it means free admittance for any activities outdoor / indoor, so yeah.. I dont lose anything by joining them to enter. :-)

We gathered at Station University around 7am plus and by LRT and Monorail we arrived at Titiwangsa and from there, we need to sit bus direct up to Genting Highland. It only cost us Rm5.90 per ticket.

Once we reach GH, the weather up there was freezing cold like hell, and due to the haze problem everything looks so dreamy up there. The feeling was just so awesome, an escape from our hot daily routine.

Look at how misty it was. The outdoor theme park was temporarily closed too when we first arrive there.

Without wasting time, after storing our luggage and sorts, their so called warm up game is 'the ship' kind of game, I dont know what it is called. I was dragged to play and I thought, okay, its not that scary and guess what when I got down, I got difficulty in breathing because my heart pumps just too fast. wtf.

See how stupid I am. wtf.

So basically my plan not to play failed. I tried almost everything except the 'commit suicide' game! Die die also I WILL NOT PLAY IT. I could really end my life up there, even closing my eyes will not help seriously.  But hor, not only me lor.. look at this. 

Hehe, thats how helping my coursemates are. Help to endure what we are afraid of! 

Its them! lol. They played around 3 times if Im not mistaken. crazy enough, right. :)

Small vs big. Cute right?! I wana try the kids one, but height exceeded already. Mehs.

Pictures do the rest okie?

The weather up there was too breezy and misty and it causes all of our hair looked so wet ! As if we were just finish taking our bath. 

Tee heeeeeee.

Next activity.

Mostly all are busy capturing photos. 

To make it short, this is the most worth visit ever. Free admittance yet trying most of the games, indoor / outdoor. Thanks to them, for being forceful enough to force me to try all those. :-D

Cute boy !

There are more pictures available but I couldnt bare to upload them all in here. We even celebrated 4 of their early birthday celebration during that night and everything went so crazy until our neighbours came knocking our door and asked if anything happened. Woops. 

Alright, im ending this post with this group picture. Cheers!

 Okayyyyyy. Maybe not.
This should be the last picture. How can a post ended without my solo picture!?

Tee hee.

A404

Hello people!

Guess what, I came back for 2 days already and Im currently having my year end break now. Im starting my second year this coming September. Oh gosh, gota admit old already. Time flies real fast! :-(

In a blink of an eye, we'd reach half of the year of 2012. So, what have you achieved so far? 

Its ok, thats basically not the main point in this post. I actually quite hesitated to compose this post with these original photos without blurring them, but its okay. I still decided to post it here to share it with all of you or maybe for my reference in the future! 

I realised I haven't really talked or mentioned anything about my hostel, so here it is. Since UM is the first university in here, so its no surprise that they don't provide us something new and fresh. Anyhow its better than staying out campus looking in the sense of money, safety, convenience and sorts. 

Here it is, Im staying on the 4th floor and I consider my block is the best so far because we have our personal toilet every 4 rooms! Unlike others where they are going have only 2 toilets in each floor. So people like me, who's afraid of goosebumps don't have to feel creepy to walk all along the corridor just to visit the toilet during the night. :-) 

My room just next to the toilet! lol.

Each room is for 4 person, so there are 2 double decker beds available. 

Im not gona mention which is my bed, just guess yourself.  

Small balcony.

One of my roomie sitting. Heh.

The only thing I dislike about my room is the study table!

Just imagine we have to share a table with 2 persons, not much privacy and space.

Ugh, ugh.