..Rhythm in me ; melissa :)

Its approximately one am now.
Yet im still not off to bed.
Chatting with some of the friends.

I was glad that, God gave me a real true friends.
Whom they'll be there when you need.
To share everything.
Yes, everything.

Basically i have already postpone tonnes of my to-do-homework-list.
Not due to tired or laziness.
Just, over something and someone.
I thought im just gona be so fine, after talked with my best buddies.
But the thing is, its not.

It may seems so easy, but actually, i dont know.
I just need to start to be serious in my studies.
I have already fooled much.
But just that when i wanted it, and things are just so not right for me.
It happen just so upside down like it was suppose to be.
Does envying others help?
lol......

To mel, please get your work done like so soon.
For the sake of the family. And yourself.
Sigh, i really hope i can forget everything. EVERYTHING.
Giving up is not the best solution ; but its one of the solution.
If things are showing me this, then i'll just accept it, unwillingly or not.
It just gonna happen, just that.

I wonder...
I'll definately tell myself not to be so stupid anymore.!

Haaa. im here again.
I've wasted my roughly two hours time WITHOUT doing anything.
yea.. without.
Tried to study, but attempt failed. Stared at it ; and it stares back!
huh.. pathetic enough.

All these while I've been clicking on facebooks.. and gone through some of my friend's blog.
what i notice was, my blog is simply too dull enough, dont you think so?
Gahh.. all black and white. Colourless.
Strikes enough with the real life of mine.
This world is so well coloured. And it brings different meaning to everyone of us.
But, does it really belongs to us?
Cut that, Ive think of changing my blog layouts. Yes, thought of it.
Somehow, nahh.. plain lazy to do so.

I'll just let it be, like how the way im letting myself to be.
We odd to demand people to change for us, but what about ourselves?
Can we change for them. Thats another story.
All i can say is, it depends on how you judge us and ourselves. If you dont like it, then im just so sorry for that.
There so many people in this universe, certainly, there are some that adores you much and also,
you know, on the other hand.
But, the question is, how many of them that adores you and how many of them that hates you so much.
Lets laugh out loud, im sure that the one that hated me is more then the one that adores me?
I dont know, i'll let all of you for the answer.

Forgiveness.
We tend to forgive those whom did mistakes, but can we forget about it?
As for me, i'll forgive but never forget.

Oh well, lets make this post a friendly one, without any hard feelings.
If you feel that im talking about you, then its just a little confession of mine without any other meaning.
I had a feeling that PMS is around the corner. urgh.
WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH FOR CREATING SO MUCH TROUBLES TO US.
Thanks for once, love my body.

There you see, I've started my ke'SS'an again. Sorry for wasting some of your time, to those that really read all of it.
hee, and i've never tried to check my advice from fb (one of the application they have)
what i got today was.

"Spend more time with those you love".

Yes i will, thanks fb. ==

Lets keep it short, i suppose? lol.
Gathering with them are awesome.
Picture meant a thousand and trillions words.

imissyougirls.

♥

I should have got the mood to study now. I GUESS? and hopefully.
Just pray hard im not updating my post for the third time in a day. -.-
hee I'll disappear now.
;)

Yours truly.

H O L I D A Y S.

Well, im gona make this post as invisible as i could.
Sorry to some readers whom i know they wont notice about this. Yea.. The purpose of im writing here are not to declare or inform anything.
just a place of my escape. i feel so hard pretend liek nothing every single day. things had changed since i duno when. hw am i suppose to live under this situation. just take me out of hereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
argh hes another prob.i jz hate arguements so much and yet it had happen to us so often ive realy think of i made the right choice or what i wanted to take this all back bt its jz too late i wish that i would have nt know u

FYI, im not gona type much on this post. Just pictures.
Sorry guys, im lazy much.

BEFORE PBIM.

YES IM SLEEPY.

Somehow, i manage to watch the 2012 movie till the end.

Which is till 3am.

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DURING PGIM

Met Yinlan coincidentally.

I shall call that as a post.! hee
Thats all for now.

Yours truly.

Hello peeps.
The Penang Bridge Marathon is going to held on the 22nd of November.
And practically everyone in my class took part in it.
For the sake of getting marks, uhh you know~

LOL. ok, although most of us joined the FUN RUN.
Well, its 10 km also. So, basically we need some practise. hehe.
Until the classmate and I came out an idea to go on joggin on that particular day.
It was effin hot when i was on the way back, and we thought that the weather gona be liek so fine.
But God knows what happen.

When we were about to leave house.. taadahhh..
Rain started pouring.
Spoilted quarter of our mood, but end up we turn up to Jusco first before we headed to Mengkuang Dam.

FYI, there was a very cute friend of mine, asked a very silly plus dumb question.

" Mengkuang Dam needs entrance fees? "

lol. Which makes all of us really rolling and laughing our ass out on that day. Excuse him, he's from nibong tebal (ahwei, if you're reading this.. haha he's ur townmate! ) ;p But a little more kampung-ish than you.. XP Let me introduce you guys...

He's the one. GAYY-est among all. hehe, thanks for the ride anyway.

;)

We were just being too random. Headed to the arcade, and spend our time there.

Until the rained had finally stopped.

The driver fetch us to the so-called-need-entrance-fees place again.

I got no idea why i LAUGHED, and not SMILED in this.

lol, with this pokerface.

And guess what, when we were about to jog, drops of water started to fall again. It was already half way so we decided just ignore it, and proceed ahead.

We were all damn wet at the end.

SEE? I MEAN IT.

And this, lol. Was taken in his car. Notice some sisa makanan there?
If there are really ants in his car, Im the one to be blamed.
haha SORRREEE. Mouth too small. =X

Well, thats all I guess for the joggin part. He sent all of us home safely.
Thanks again, if youre reading this, POKERFACE.
;p

P/s : I'll update the poet competition day like, soo soon. ;)

Yours truly.

你走了太久一定很累他错了不该你来面对
离开他就好就算了心情很干脆

他其实没有那么绝对
远一点你就看出真伪
离开他不等于你的世界会崩溃
转个弯你还能飞

就别再为他流泪
别再让他操控你的伤悲
就算有一点愚昧一点点后悔
也不要太狼狈
他不值得你的泪
把那遗憾留在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以后为自己醉
以后管他是谁
每段感情都非常珍贵
他的好你就放在心扉
记得有个人曾让你那样的心醉

你笑了照亮夜幕的黑
什么梦都不比你的美
多少年以后想起他还有些体会
那些你已无所谓

Why create problem for yourself?
Sigh.

I hear the children sing
I feel the love for nature
The sky is blue
The field is green
As I stand by the windows
Awake
All I see
A world full of misery.

All of a sudden
My mum's advice
Imprinted in my mind
She said..
Mother Earth has to be protected
Environment cant be in chaos

Can someone tell me?
Why is the forest become a killing field?
Why is our ocean pitch-black?
Why is the greenish hillside barren?
Why do I see my friend with tears in her eyes?
Why do I hear the earth weeping?

All of these
We have ourselves to blame.. ( WE TO BE BLAMED)
We forget who we are
We lost out sense of responsibilities
Earth we degraded
They have no where to go..
Onlyt after the last resource has been used up
Will we then stop our avarice?

I dont understand
When the Earth is in distress
Everybody is lookign to be a hero
Why dont we be responsible for a sustainable lifestyle?
Its not too late (Definately not too late)
To awaken
Our conscience to do what is right

To survive on Earth
We must change people's perceptions
'No sustainablity, no human race'
Remember
We didnt inherit the Earth from our ancestors
We merely borrowed it from our children
Dont let them suffer
Bequeath them with joys and hopes

Modern technology
Owes ecology
An apology for the insatiable desires of mankind
Dont continue these destructive trends
Let us start over
Practice sustainability and save out Mother earth.

FYI, this masterpiece brought us to the final at the RECSAM SEAMEO Penang on the 14th of November.
Wish us luckkk! ;))

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And happy birthday to dad too.
❤

Time flies with a blink of eye.
Without hesitate, I've been studying in the High School for roughly half year,
it shouldnt be any sweet memory. Im sorry to say that.
I just miss my previous school and my previous friends so much. People are changing, we are changing. We gota be like so strong once we step out from out high school.
Things cant be predicted, as anything can happen under the Sun.
Me myself should be at Perak, without internet connection, under the rural area studying at KMP itself now. But who knows, im back to Penang here.
Pros or cons? Have both itself. I dont blame anyone for this decision, as people always says the last decision is always on our hand itself.
Remorse or not? It should be at times.
When I think of the the bright side of staying back then there'll be no remorsing. And vice versa.

Another 2 months, then I'll be in the Upper form.
And again, to sit for the major exam. Sighs.
I just hate the feeling of sitting exams, especially the major one. Like the past SPM.
Although I dont remember how i prepare for my SPM, but STPM now itself has freak me out.
Duhh.
Plus, there are just too many things for me to worry about. On every aspects.
Others just dont understand and they cant even understand me.
In this reality, things does not please everyone.
Tonnes of questions are left unanswered, and perhaps it does not have any answer for it.
We just gota be strong, which is kinda hard. I know. Theres no other choice.
Just accept them?
Sighs, I cant find the joy anymore. There might be a shell on it, but who knows its very soft in it indeed.

You got your theory in it, and i got mine too.
Why is this world turning to be like this. Or am i being too sensitive over things happen around me? I gota agree with it, over little things i can think of it for over few hours. Thats me.
And i'll let it keep running around my head... I shall burst my head. Im not einstein.
Im melissa. A typical girl.
I'll just hope that things gona be so fine in so little time.

I shall stop emo ing here.
Have a nice day and thanks for reading it anyway.

HAPPY HOLIDAY TO THOSE BASED-ON-OUR-CALENDAR STUDENT. ;(

Today, the day that someone had waited so long had finally reached..
And guess what. Something really unexpected happen. lol. Everything ruined and hee, YESH.
He so wanted it to be a special day, really achieved. ;p
You never experience that before right, dont you? So there it is. Geeeez.
Im not gona mention much bout today here.
You know, I know, he knows, she knows,.. Will do :)

I shall wish you over here,

A VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY, again.
and also..

Get well soon. ;)

❤

Yours truly.